Living Life to the Full

Is it me or is my life wizzing past me without me actually acknowledging it? It’s like I’ve blinked and I’m now old and making life changing decisions about my future. I’m not old and wise and I’m certainly not mature enough. How am I meant to decide what I want for myself? I mean, I think I know what I want, but when I look back at some of the stupid decisions I’ve made I’m not too sure that I trust myself with my life in my hands. Someone else choose my future path please. Then at least I’ll have someone to blame when it all goes to shit.

I just wish that life would slow down so I could enjoy it a bit more. This time last year I was looking at universities, I didn’t have a clue where or what I wanted to do and today I’ve just booked my accommodation at Nottingham Trent. This time in a year I’ll be finishing my first year at uni, what about in 10 years or 20 years. I’ll blink once again and I’ll be old and grey sitting in my granny chair, wearing shoes because they’re comfortable and not because they look good , with a wedding ring imbedded in my ring finger from decades of marriage and grandkids running round my feet. Wooooah no thanks, for now I’m going to enjoy every second of my youth, I’m going to write a list of everything I want to do before I die because I want to look back and think ‘yeah I lived every second of my life!’ at the moment I spend far too much time sitting in my onesie eating chocolate and watching friends episodes that I’ve seen 100 million times. Although undoubtedly this will continue it will not be a common occurrence anymore. It’s time to start living.